Whenever i'm down...

Well, i must admit. My life would be a completely fall out, if there wasn't for some people i know... You know, the ones you call "friends".

They made me feel more confident about my attitude, mostly because they had similar tastes and thoughts. And, they made me more talkative, because now that we had similar tastes we were able to talk a lot. Hours, as i reember. Then, it was just a matter of time to do motre things togheter. Like playing on the computer (or fixing it), making music, and watching TV or videos.

But of course, people... Well, it's difficult to put it. Because every person is different, so there're people who changes and there are people who don't. But it seems that, the corcumstances have changed. A lot. So the chances of seeing my friendsare decreasing. And the fact that people change... So, at the long run it seems that our friends can change, despite the fact how much you would like to meet with them. So maybe there will get another friends and you will have to do the same. It's the way it works, it seems. Yet, i'm still trying to understand that.



Friends... It seems that they are not permanent, as i was naively thinking before. I miss them. But.... Heeck! I'm too confused now. Better end this here and keep going.

Cigarettes and alcohol... No, it's not the Oasis song.

Yesterday... The good old yesterday. There were encountered feelings that day.

First, the unkown guy's birthday party. Invited by Eduardo. The only thing i had to pay was the gas to pick up his new girlfriend... Yeah, new girlfriend. Nice girl, she seems to be honest and simple-minded. I personally hope they get along well.

The party was fine. I danced, drinked and ate some roasted chicken and turkey. Yet, i felt somewhat... Tired. I felt like this party was like the others, and, well, i felt a void. A void of monotony, always the same schedule: Eat like hell, drink without too much alcohol, dance with someone and if not dance alone, go to the bathroom and drink some water in the way.... Every party had been the same. Or at least the majority of them. So, i tried to break the scheme and talked with the other people. Some girls didn't want to, but some other did. I met some friend's friend's friends who were astoundishly normal, even they tried to make a mixture of all the remaninings in the bottles near the end of the party... Good luck i wasn't there. Eduardo's girlfriend (from now one, Carol) and her friend (Carolina) talked a lot about their lives and their tastes, but they were kind of nervous about talking to me for reasons i still don't know. The birthday guy was busy with his fiancee, so i didn't have much time to talk to him, and.. Well, his family was awfully quiet, except when they were keeping an eye on the barbeque.

At the end, i was exhausted from dancing, i ate a lot, and i forgot the city map. Normal party. I went to sleep and all that stuff.